All Things Considered

Well well well...it's been quite some time since I blessed the blogworld w/a new post. Alas, the wait is over...


Let's jump right in. This blog is going to be ALL OVER THE PLACE (I think)!! I will start by addressing my current "love life"...So...I asked CB 1 question that changed my entire mind frame: Has your heart EVER went pitty pat, or have you EVER gotten butterfly flutters in your tummy at the thought of me? I asked for an honest answer...one that wasn't going to spare my feelings. The response: I've never felt butterflies, but you do have feelings for you that a basic chick couldn't give me.

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Now...this statement (upon further inspection) reveals that CB is pretty much just trying to keep me in the pocket.

The latter half of that statement reminds me of a pure player, and I don't wanna think of CB that way, but it is what it is. Do I believe CB does feel a lil extra for me...yes! Do I feel CB feels extra to the point that we could ever be anything beyond friends...NO! Does CB want to straight up say that...NO! CB wants to keep me dangling with the possibility that one day we could be. With that being said, I can't keep halting advancements w/Young Gent in hopes that CB will come around - Sure I've said this before, but I don't think I really MEANT it before, and I half-way don't think I mean it now (smh @ myself for this gargantuan crush). CB seems to have some sort of little hold on me. Something about CB is just so undeniably spectacular, but why try to invest in something that doesn't seem like it'll have a positive payout in the end? Clearly, the response given to the question I asked was all I needed to accept that fact that CB and I will NEVER BE ANYTHING more than friends and maybe a fuck. It's sad, but true.

Sidenote: CB if you're reading this...I will ALWAYS want you in a way that you don't want me, but I'm being a woman...an adult woman, and accepting that. I don't want you to string me along anymore cuz I'm very hip to game, and I know you don't think you're playing me, but you're playing me. Our friendship means more to me than my crush on you does...so...I'll always be ya HPBOFA (can u figure out that textcronym lol), and I'll always have ya back.

Alright blog fam...that's it for me. This wasn't as all over the place as I thought it would be.

*hugs and love*
-iCandy